The Dreams Never Ends.

7.12 pm. Magrib. I'm about to pray for the next few minutes. This is what God gave me. I see her anywhere, everywhere. I can't stop it. My head is reminding me about her all the time. I can't do nothing about it.

I don't know why, but I lost her few days before. I can see her without my body's shaking. But today, I didn't see her at all. But I saw her in my mind. The moment that we had together, It's spinning around like hell. I try to think about some other things, bt I failed to do so. This is shit. Why I can't forget about her? 

Why she's still running in my mind? why is she there? Why? she's not mind anymore, she abandon me when I need her so much. But I can't keep looking like this. This is hell. Heavens not. 

I'm fucked up today. I don't know what's going on here. I got an exam that i need to cover, I just got 10 ringgit for the whole day. Jamming session tonight. I dun have any money for that crap. And this is what I've been waiting. My parents. I asked them to call, But they don't. Is this care? Is this what they call love? Hell no!!

Fuck!! this is shit! Why am i suppose to hold this shit off me? Why not they care for me, like I did to them? What's fair now? What's the meaning of this? Girlfriend? I do care about you so much. Then you said you need space. I give you space, but you left. Fuck!! what is this? I'm lying? If i lie, I wont see your parents dear. I won't let myself be that shit ex boy of yours doing the same thing. I just act normal. No pretend. I never pretend to be good like hell. This is me. WHy not you understand??

God, I'm broke. I need a ship with tons of money. I need to be rich. And make a fool of poor people who thought that they are fun enough? 

(I don't know what I was saying. I don't think this is what I want. I just need love.. Now it's gone.)